熱情至低落，失意又成長 一個籃球運動隱形人的生命敘說

Abstract

喜歡籃球，熱愛籃球的人，都因為灌籃高手的卡通，編織著自己的籃球夢，因夢想而參加籃球校隊，參與訓練的人，都朝著自己的目標夢想圓夢。投入運動競技的世界裡，每個人都希望有自己的發揚自己夢想的舞台，屬於自己在籃球夢想中的角色。但並非每個追夢的人，都可以圓夢，都有自己的舞台，大部分的人，像是電影的幕後工作般的隱形，沒有舞台，最後放棄自己的夢想，最後絕望的離開自己最愛的籃球，熱情也被無情的澆熄，成為運動場域中的運動隱形人。 筆者帶著夢想，進入了高中籃球校隊，在技術尚未純熟的過程中，成為訓練場上及比賽場中的隱「形」人，進入大學後，在籃球體保生及職業球員的環境中，再次體驗到了自己變成隱「刑」人的身心失落感，更能感受到自己存在這個世界中變成隱形人的真實感。從熱情的參與，到低落的信心，從中了解自己，進而改變自己的想法，對籃球運動的態度，及運動生命的價值觀，從失意的籃球場中茁壯成長，進而成為有「型」具有正向態度增強抗壓性，面對未來挑戰的人生。 本文以敘說研究及存在哲學卡謬的哲學思想作為研究的理論基礎，透過敘說深度的自我真實敘說，從成長，加入校隊的過程，隔離練習的「刑」，板凳球員的「刑」，藉由不斷的回想過去的選手歷程，以及心情，情境的轉變，了解存在運動世界中的另一層意義，最後從運動隱「刑」人，成為了運動隱「型」人，得到更清楚的了解跟詮釋。

Like basketball, people love basketball, all because of Slam Dunk cartoon, weaving his own basketball dreams, because dreams attend school basketball team, people involved in the training, have toward their goals dreams come true. Into athletic world, everyone wants to have their own dream stage develop, their own role in the basketball dream. But not every man can dream, can realize their dreams, have their own stage, most of the people working behind the scenes like a movie-like stealth, no stage, and finally give up their dreams, the last desperate to leave their favorite basketball, dampen enthusiasm was relentless, becoming invisible sport stadium field. The author with dreams, into the high school basketball school team, technically skillful process to become a training ground and playing fields in the hidden "shaped" people, after entering the university, students and professional basketball player protection body environment again experience the hidden themselves into "criminal" people's physical and mental sense of loss, more than ever of their existence in this world becomes invisible realism. From the enthusiastic participation of the low confidence, learn about themselves, and then change his mind, the attitude of basketball, and the values of the movement of life, from a frustrated basketball court thrive, and thus become "type" has a positive attitude enhanced resistance to stress, to face the future challenges in life. In this paper, the existence of narrative research and Camus's philosophy of philosophy as a theoretical basis for the study, the true self through narrative depth narrative, from the growth process to join the school team, isolation exercises "punishment," the bench "punishment" by by the players constantly remember past history, as well as mood, situational changes, to understand the existence of another layer of meaning in the world of sports, from the last movement of the implicit "criminal" who became the sport implicit "type" of people, to get a clearer understanding with interpretation.