以「愛」之名：陳雪創作歷程探析（1995-2014）

Abstract

本論文以陳雪於1995年出版至2014年的作品為考察對象，分析歸納她的創作歷程與寫作意識的轉換，探討她如何書寫愛情的嬗遞與在愛情中的成長轉變。

陳雪近年（2012）出版的作品風格可說是有別過去的負面書寫。長篇小說《迷宮中的戀人》（2012）內容以愛情為論述軸心，藉由敘述者「我」之病體關係，不斷進行著自我反省的詰問，並意圖透過「愛情」而撐起了敘事者「我」的生活。自此，「愛情」成為她此階段的論述主軸，《人妻日記》（2012）、《戀愛課》（2014）以愛情為主旨，書寫內容明亮清新，教導讀者如何在愛情中成長與學習放下。

從創作文類的變化，也可看出陳雪創作意識的改變。《迷宮中的戀人》為小說體外，其他如《人妻日記》、《台妹時光》（2013）、《戀愛課》（2014），紛紛以日記、散文的記實形式呈現給讀者。從虛擬文類的小說過渡到貼近作家真實人生的日記、散文，「現身」不僅帶給了讀者正面力量，也改寫過去同志文學的悲情基調。

綜言之，本文將透過陳雪1995年到2014年的創作歷程中，探析她創作意識的轉變關鍵與創作轉向的重點，挖掘更多的創作面貌。

This study aims to induce awareness transition of Chen Xue’s writings in 1995 to 2014, with analyzing her descriptions of relationships and feelings in love. Chen Xue’s writings published since 2012 show different discussion points and writing skills from earlier depressive ones. The Lovers in the Maze describes inside struggles and self-examinations of the main disable character having seriously cureless disease to show what love is. Chen Xue’s writings are based on a relationship between lovers since then. Housewife Diary and Lessons from Love Affairs published in 2012 and 2014 focusing on life of people falling in love have open and clear narration and so readers can learn how to let go and become stronger. Chen Xue’s changing awareness transition made different literatures. Besides The Lovers in the Maze which is a novel, Housewife Diary and Taiwanie Memories published in 2013 are written in practical writing and prose. From fiction to diary and prose about real life, Chen Xue’s coming out encouraged her readers and changed the depressive Homosexual Literature. For finding more writing viewpoints of Chen Xue, her key awareness transition and writing transformation are discussed and analyzed by studying Chen Xue’s writings from 1995 to 2014.

Key words：Chen Xue, Lovers in the Maze, Housewife Diary and Lessons from Love Affairs