青少年時期歷經非預期喪親對其生活與成年親密關係之經驗探究

Abstract

本研究的目的是了解青少年時期歷經非預期喪親在其生活與親密關係為何，研究者邀請五名有相關經驗擔任研究參與者，並以現象學作為研究方法論，再透過半結構深度訪談以及現象學分析法，對研究參與者之主體經驗進行意義的探尋。在研究結果的部分，研究者除了分別針對每位研究參與者之青少年非預期喪親之成年親密關係經驗，歸納出研究者在本節中呈現透過現象學分析獲得之研究結果，分為兩個層面之經驗主軸。第一主軸為生活經驗，普遍經驗結構為包括「失去依靠，一夜長大」、「內隱自卑，外顯平常」、「轉移焦點，獨自悲傷」、「家庭失能，關係生變」、「偶遇貴人，長夜伴行」；第二主軸為親密關係經驗，普遍經驗結構為包括「習於自主，難以親密」、「情感匱乏，尋求滿足」、「枕戈待旦，害怕失去」、「盼鈞理解，愛屋及烏」所理解到的跨研究參與者之共同經驗本質。本研究最後基於上述研究結果，針對未來從事輔導相關領域針對青少年喪親經驗與其成年之關係經驗提供實務建議。

The purpose of this study is to understand the experiences of individuals who have unexpected parental loss during adolescence, especially the experience of life and experience of intimate relationship. This study used research methods of phenomenology to carry out interviews with five interviewees with relevant experiences. Through semi-structured in-depth interviews and phenomenological analysis, the researcher aimed to explore the meaning of the participants’ subjective experiences.The results of this study found two main experiential axes from these five participants: (1) The experience of life. (2) The experience of intimate relationships.The common experiential structures of the first axis included “have no backing and grow in a twinkling,” “implicit inferiority and outward normality,” “shifting focus and grieving alone,” “family dysfunction and relationship changes,” and “encountering benefactors and companion from dusk till dawn.” The common experiential structures of the second axis included “too independent to have intimacy,” “being emotionally deprived and searching for fulfillment,” “being on guard and fearing loss,” and “longing for understanding and all-encompassing love.” Based on findings, practical implications and suggestions were made for counseling practitioners and future researchers.