走在我的探索之路—長期接觸探索教育課程學生自我覺察之自我敘說研究

Abstract

本研究以自我敘說的方式，筆者依據留存的探索教育課程資料與心得，梳理過往的探索教育課程經驗，探討長期探索教育課程對研究生在自我覺察產生的意義與影響為何。從與母親的情感記憶連結，以自我覺察的角度切入，解構與母親的情感關係，再重新賦予經驗新的意義。結論歸納出探索教育的課程經驗擴張了生命的厚度與韌性，終將成為生命的養分，也會是生命持續向前邁進的能量，在走過自我覺察之後，筆者更加意識到情緒的重要性，將會耐心的等待與陪伴內在小孩，得以貼近矛盾真切的內心。最後，對接觸過探索教育課程的學生與未來有意願以自我敘說為研究方式的研究生提出相關建議。With the research method of Self-Narrative, the researcher organized the adventure education course experiences and documents to explore the meaning and influence of the long-term adventure education on her self-awareness. The aware process evoked the connection of the emotional memory with her mom. She started to deconstruct the relationship in order to find the new meaning. Furthermore, the researcher concluded that the adventure education experiences expanded the thickness and resilience of life, became the nutrient of life, also be the power to move forward. After going through self-awareness, the researcher recognized the importance of emotions, and will patiently accompany the inner child in order to get near the conflicted heart. Finally, the researcher gave some suggestions for the students who have the adventure education experiences and the graduate student who are willing to write self-narrative research.